Normal

Normal.....what is normal? Over the past 7+ yrs I have often longed to have a "normal family". For the 4yrs we were trying to get pregnant all I wanted was to be a normal person and be able to have children, then we started the AFC and all I have wanted since is to be a normal family and be able to do normal family things. But I have come to realize that normal for every person and family is so very different. There is no normal.

Last week Thursday we got news that rocked our world....changed what our normal was. And even though I have not been content with my normal, all I wished for was "our normal". Funny how that happens.

I was 29 weeks pregnant with our 2nd miracle baby (a story for a whole other post). I went in for an ultrasound (my 3rd since 20wks). The tech indicated to me that everything looked great and never gave me any indication that there was a possibility that something was wrong. Well, I got the dreaded phone call from my OB on the following Thursday. As soon as i heard her voice I knew. I knew something was wrong. My heart sank, tears came to my eyes, i sat down waiting to hear. She told me that the baby had spinal fluid leaking back onto his/her brain. That the baby has two ventricles that they measured and one is enlarged. One being 7 (or 8, I don't really remember) and the other being 18. I started to cry and my mind went blank so I had no questions ready for her and she didn't expand on anything. She just told me she would be sending me back to the Perinatologist that I saw with little Princess.

So many thoughts to process, so much research to be done, so many prayers prayed and so many lessons to be learned. God will be with us through it all!

So.....I guess we will be adapting to a new normal, whatever that may be!